My stupidity knows no bounds sometimes..

why?why,why, why did i have to go send that stupid sms out? (i guess to fully comprehend what im going on about, one has to go back to the beginning,yes?)
started sometime last weeklah..yours truly, feeling slightly out of sorts was sitting in my room contemplating something or other lah..(i cant remember now..) and suddenly..out of bloody nowhere..a f$%^king epiphany hit..at least at the time i thought it was an epiphany lah..now i just think it was a stupid decision..yeah..decided to quit smoking..yup, 7 years..two million packs..gone! (can i just retract the whole paragraph cos this is making me uneasy and i think i need a smoke..)geezus..and it all started out as some stupid joke lah about how ciggie prices are going up and therefore in an effort to save money i should quit..but hell!2 dollars versus smokey heaven?and i can't even back out now cos it'd be wussy..and i've already made a deal/bet with some of my very clever friends who are reading this going " man, thats gonna be an easy 20 dollars.." but NO!i shall prevail...excuse me, i think i need some fresh air now.....where the hell is that lighter?..